when you came into my life, i would've sworn things would never go the way they did but hell, i'm thankful they did. it's been a nice long few months with you. we've gotten to experience things together as firsts, we got to explore our feelings without feeling pressured and like things have to be a certain way, and we've come to terms that having no titles is okay and can still feel as magical as it does in any "normal" relationship. to me, you are that. you are a relationship that i will always cherish and although i don't know what the future holds for us, i am thankful for the time we have had and still have ahead of us. you are a light in my life. something i didn't ever expect to have from you, and even if i never got it, i think i would've been so content with friendship (don't get any ideas now).

when we were in berlin and you werw working, i did a bit of shopping and i found this pendant which i needed to have, for myself. then i thought about it and got two. and then i got this brilliant idea to make it a thing and purchased one in los angeles and new york, too. hung them all on a chain for both of us, and now we'll have matching ones. it's not exactly something you have to wear, but i thought it would be a nice way to collect some of our memories together. berlin, new york and los angeles. those three cities brought you into my life and they will forever hold a special place in my heart.

thank you for being such a huge part of my life and merry christmas, sweet boy.

love you always, nico.